Tuesday, December 23, 2008
- One Baby Drama -
One stiff neck, 1 message and 1 phone call later, my tuesday had become from dramatic to traumatic. 2 consecutive outings in a day had come to none, and i was desperate to get out of the house.
2 of my good friends were having their periods around the same time, and while one had taken the medicine to comfort the pain, the other one chose to walk around the house in hopes of shaking it off. the only pain i had was my ass from sitting on the swivel chair for too long a time.
I had just finished my taiwanese drama (Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni) in speed time, and then a random transition to an episode in Sex and the City didnt seem to change anything. It was the episode where miranda got pregnant. These few days everything i watched had an actress getting pregnant. which set me thinking... if i would ever be a father one day, would i be a good one?
If the drama i watched had taught me one thing, its than its so much easier to be romantic when you are friggin rich. But the guy in the show had it all right from the start. What about us then, the ones who need to slog hard in order to reach the point of financial freedom? In the quest for the comfortable lifestyle we all wish to be in, will there ever be a win-win situation when it comes to the children? I wonder then, if i will ever be able to give up my ambitions in life to watch my children grow. If you had spent your whole lives studying and working hard for your own future, is it realy worth to give up everything for your children?
In a way, im proud of my mama, because for the past 7 years she would always jet off overseas for holidays with just her best friends and no one else, because she knows that if she doesnt do something for herself right now she will not be able to enjoy and have fun properly at all when she's old and weak.
And so, i know i cant have it all in my life, and time will only tell when i decide whether the biggest, proudest achievements in my life came from taking care of my children as they grew up, or from the millions of dollars worth of contracts i would have signed.
Of course, i can choose to ponder about this for another day, or move on to another drama and look at pretty girls again. for now though, the decision comes easily. I choose the latter haha.
Written fashion may not be history @1:58 PM
