Thursday, August 09, 2007
- TV Grumbles -I had finally caved in. The reality of going to my first lectures on friday without the notes in hand was as daunting as not being able to eat a plate of cheese fries in front of me. The worst thing was that i had already run out of black ink even before the initiation started, so i was to be prepared to see everything in blue on friday.The thing is after watching sex and the city (Dont ask me why), there was a particular chapter in the series that interested me greatly. "Are we doing everything in life because of the shoulds and should nots?" Were we in the university because we should have, with the comfortable family background that most of us grew up in? How little times have we seen people bravely drop their current education to do something that really interested them (Oh dont tell me you did not gasp a little when you heard students with straight As from RGS saying that they want to commit to their sporting career full time by entering into the sports school?) Well turns out if you noticed, the sports column of the straits times is not exactly brimming with news about the kids from the new school much nowadays, especially when it should, considering that the Olympics was just officially a year away from us a day ago. Most of us are really just in real life, doing everything in the motion we should be doing it in, and basking in whatever glory that the future will bring us, convincing ourselves that it was all worth it. I'm thinking back of the day the university had wanted the students to choose their electives based on the first come first serve basis. I was wondering why it took me forever to choose something and just get it done and over with (In fifteen short minutes every module worthy of taking up was gone) Conversations with miss potato led from a dilemma of which electives to take up to just taking up whatever that fits the damn timetable to a T. Yet i come with the sudden realisation that i was not being slow at all; probably deep inside, i just thought that it was my last chance, through the electives, that i could probably study something else that i could have made a career out of but never dared to. I told people during my first year in junior college that i would quit school and join mass comm studies in the polytechnic if i had then not managed to promote (I thought i could fulfil a hidden desire to be a columnist in the newspaper; i had slowly come to like sumiko tan then). But they all fluttered away in rapid, slow vapours when i found out that i had made it almost instantaneously. Was it my basic instinct to continue following the motion since there was room for me at that moment of time? Probably. But is it still the truth that what I may be doing now might be the best for me? Hell yes.So we go back to thinking whether there should be any debate in the first place. I think that it really isnt about the 'shoulds', 'should-haves' or 'should-nots' that determine the paths that we take in life. Its really just about the 'wants' and 'not wants'. If we want to eat ice-cream, eat it. And if we decide that we want to follow the motion, then screw the question of "should we?" and better make the best out of everything. Because admist all possibilities in the world, we only have that one life to try and live as fulfilling as ever, and that's really just about it.
Written fashion may not be history @11:56 PM
