Saturday, January 28, 2006
An Aussie Dampener.So tennis is over for now with the women's finals terribly disappointing, but the festive period is of much more concern to me this year. Though im missing the second day of the festive period having to do army duty, im actually glad that im not able to visit my relatives with all my younger cousins running wild. And absolutely from my point of view, with some being out of hand. It must be due to the fact that i was not stern enough with them when they were younger, so you just really kind of get tortured differently with each growing phase of their lives.If i had remembered correctly, it first started with me giving them piggybacks ever since i was in primary school. Then they started to enjoy stepping on my feet as i tried to continue walking around the house with human attachments all over my body. Then the horrid ones were when they learnt the word shit, and bitch, and bastard, while mastering them to be eloquently used in every sentence during conversations with me. (Which then you surely start pondering why were they so freaking stupid when it came to the examinations) Not to forget mentioning, when they start rampaging your room for photos, demanding that you had relationships with every girl you took photos with in close proximities (who doesnt?). You then of course, start praying fervently that they grow up real quickly so that maturity can finally knock some shithead sense into them. But then they start learning about sex and homosexuality and ... lets stop here. January has been real unfulfiling for me. Which is probably why i have realised myself getting more hot headed nowadays. I guess when you have no clear direction or task, your sense of judgement about things becomes unfocused and everything small just seems to blow up in proportions. I need Uhm, friend therapy and an Ayumi concert in Singapore.You know, if you had read the book 'rich dad, poor dad', you would have remembered how they talked about the kind of people who were confident enough to take risks to secure their financial future and those who well, just want to slog for their bosses while getting their monthly rewards. I realised it had been years since i tried to mentally challenge myself to think and aim big in life, and for a while actually thinking that i had probably been successful in feeling confident about it for months. But then i met this exceptional kid from camp who was so confident about the success in his life that i realised i was still far from the life i want so bad to attain. I say this because i feel that i can and must, for myself, surpass what my grandfather had achieved in his career.But of course, we must first have our financial security. Here's to hoping that everyone can get more money this year from the red packets. Happy chinese new year :
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